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Wednesday, October 22nd, 2008
10:40 pm
Hold the press!
Now that I have everyones attention... oh nevermind.

Things are moving along swiftly. Antonio decided to move in with me and we're doing just fine as roommates. My trip was wonderful. Seeing everyone, partying with aaron and wes caldwell. That was interesting. Seeing kuss, it all brought me back to high school days. I do miss it sometimes.

I miss:
Hanging out in the band room
talking to the guys (pat nick seth chase tyler)
Partying
Randomly finding things with andrew and jennifer (pom pom.. keyboards.. ect)
spray painting the third floor
Sitting on 'my' desk
playing out on the feild
the magic words...
friends and nervous breakdowns


I don't miss:
Arguing with teachers, mainly McCarrol and Krier
Fighting with boyfriends... nuff said
Kuss's AHH! from the office
Dominic going through my stuff
my car being parked in the back feild....uhh hmm andrew!


But aside from it all, the good clearly outweighs the bad. Now everyone is engaged, jennifer, briitney, dayne, kayla... sigh. People are married.. julie jim whitney and so on. And I... sigh.. i still can't seem to find someone who truley loves me. The world of relationships is a vengefull old bitch, but i got the trump card :P. lol

Just remember kids... We are merely the ink spots on society's clothing.

Current Mood: calm

(1 Add More Stress | Another Day At Home)

Wednesday, September 17th, 2008
2:19 am
Salutations, Greetings.. ok whatever
Good late evening everyone? I'm on my break at work... not a fan of the job i have and probably updating this isn't a safe thing to do... but it's w/e because i have nothing better to do than to get around work firewalls. I must head back into the lab in a second but before i return to my gauntlet of hell i should probably say a few things.

I will NEVER again and i mean NEVER help out people to a certain degree anymore. I had to drive Ricky to martinsburg WV this morning for his court date because i was a retard and signed the bail bond to get him out making me liable for $1500 if he was a 'no show'. Fun times. My last roommate didn't end to well either... not touching that and now we're probably going to court because she didn't pay her rent... AGH!

I got my student loan situation under countrol, Malinko gets surgery on next friday. I'm moving on October 7th to my new place which hopefully goes better than the last to roommate situations. And I'm looking to return to school in january for my nursing career. Life could be worse I suppose.

I see that Josh and Julianna are doing well. Get back to me guys later

(1 Add More Stress | Another Day At Home)

Wednesday, February 20th, 2008
11:55 pm
Epiphany
I had an epipjany on the way home from work tonight. It was quite refreshing actually. I'm coming home tomorrow night for my birthday on Friday. I'm very excited. I went to a concert last night with Sparky down in baltimore. We saw Linkin Park and most importantly.. COHEED AND CAMBRIA. You all know that coheed will always be my favorite band no matter what. it was an adventure all in it'self. I think that the funniest and most entertaining moment of the whole night was walking back to the car and s this happened:

Guy and Girl talking to their drunk friend:

Guy and Girl: " Get out of the street dude! "
Drunk friend: "slurring and running" Ok!

He then proceeds to run into a parked truck and falls flat on his face and says (who put that there)

me and sparky cracked up.


I'll be at my parents for the weekend and leaving on monday. I hope to see some of you when i get back.

(Another Day At Home)

Saturday, February 2nd, 2008
4:36 am
Alive
I don't feel so alive anymore. I actually feel comatose. I'm not sure what is going on but my mind is kinda in it's own vicinity. I think i spelled that wrong but i don't care right now. Anywho. I think that this world is getting smaller. Too many people around me trying to be something they aren't because a select few around them are becoming more and more i don't know the word for it but it's kind of juvenile. What ever make them happy i suppose. I don't even know why i care and now i'm just typing the first thoughts that come to mind.

Start again, sigh. I guess the only reason i really thought to write in this journal is because noone really reads or writes in lj anymore because xanga took over and choked on life and died and then myspace decided to spread an epidemic worse than aids in but a short year. 2008 should prove to be interesting. Can't be as bad as 2007. I had relationships problems spread like wild fire in fucking california and death surrounded me so much that even the grim reaper was jealous. I just tired of the games that life likes to play i just wanna live but unfortunately that IS life and i'm just going to have to deal with it.

I hope everyone back home is doing well. I suspect most of you are still in school and working crappy jobs to pay for it. Good luck with that guys I really hope things are going well. I'm not sure what I want to do anymore but i know it's not what i'm doing now. I look forward to tomorrow everyday because the past is always a sure knowing thing... the future is full of questions and opportunity's that i can't wait to find.

I'm tired and have to take Malinko to the vet tomorrow for hit shots. I'll talk to everyone later. My cell (((301 305 7150)))) is always on so if your bored feel free to call. i'm always awake. Good night/morning

Current Mood: contemplative

(Another Day At Home)

Tuesday, November 6th, 2007
7:33 pm
Time
With time old wounds heal over and with time somethings don't seem as big as they were there. With time others grow happy and further more, everyone gets older. Time hasn't been much of a friend of mine lately. I'm building my life back up from the bottem. I've made some errors in my jounrey but I regret nothing. I learned valuable lessons from every choice I've made.

On another note. Antonio and I are doing well. I got a few job offers but the commute to DC isn't that inticing.

just letting everybody know what's going on in my life. I will be visiting home this weekend. I need the time away.

(Another Day At Home)

Tuesday, September 4th, 2007
11:48 pm
here's what's going on
Friday I decided that i was going to do nothin. The crew and I went to the mall and then we we're like lets go to the ppol hall.. that got old quick.
I decided that we would go visit jake who was having a bonfire. Well spiggs decided he was going to call me a whore and shove me... i left before i killed the mother fucker. I busted my knee open and it wouldn't stop bleeding so i antonio got me tipsy and field bandaged the mother fucker. Saturday steph got drunk and we all watched pirates 3 sunday night. Monday steph did laundry and i slept most of the day. i'm still sick today. Andy and I are always fighting. Forgive the limp bizkit reference butit's all because of the 'he said she said bullshit'.

Fuck me runnin

(Another Day At Home)

Friday, August 31st, 2007
12:57 pm
okay
So i'm not sure what's going on in my life right now. My job is so fucked that it makes a prostitute look like the virgin mary. My personal life is soo scrambled and confusing that i'd have better luck solving trigonometry questions in my sleep... Honestly do I just bring this on myself? I mean really? Is there a sign that follows above me that says.. hey i'm that sweet girl that you can just use and mistreat.

I love Andy.. i really do but I can not handle this fucking drama. I can not stand the immaturity and i swear to god the lack of trust is re-god-damn-diculous!

It's going to be a brownie + ice cream + movie night. :(

Current Mood: crushed

(Another Day At Home)

Monday, August 27th, 2007
11:44 am
Hello there the angel from my nightmare
Well, Steph and I threw a party Friday night... well the cops decided to invite themselves. Not too fun. The party consisted of Steph, Sparky, Jake, Blain, Matt, Stewie, Missy, Zack, Aubrey, Antonio, and me. Fun night it was and you better believe i slept all day saturday. Fought with andy pretty much all weekend and his family as well. Bonfire party at andys saturday night.. yeah that was 'fun'. Steph made sloppy joes last night for dinner.. it was spec-fucking-tacular.

(Another Day At Home)

Tuesday, August 21st, 2007
3:20 pm
Last Night was quite possibly a night spent in hell. I got into another fight with andy andwell it didn't go well. I confronted him on another topic and he lied straight to my face. Now the only question is:


What am i going to do now?

(Another Day At Home)

Wednesday, August 15th, 2007
12:45 pm
Umm Yeeeaaahhhh....
A scar means that the hurt is over...


So, i'm having a rough couple of weeks. I hate all this stress. Andy and I got into a fight because I did something fucking retarded again. I'm writing about it on here because well quite frankly it's my journal and i'll write what i want to.

I'm still trying to get a good grasp on whats going on in life right now. I really need to get away. I don't wanna here about the bad I want good damn it. This weekend was full of stress and frightning moments. I lost it on Sunday,.. bad. I didn't sleep all night. I used an old remedy to make the stress go away.. one which i regret now for certain reasons. I almost killed the only thing that makes me happy these days for my own selfish ways. The disturbing part of the whole thing... it actually worked.

I wish I could understand just what i'm supposed to be doing. I miss you,.. god do i miss you. I need you, do you need me?

You took the breath right out of me... you left a hole where my heart should be.

(1 Add More Stress | Another Day At Home)

Monday, August 6th, 2007
7:33 am
Manic Monday
'tis only a flesh wound.. flesh wound?? you're missing an arm!? No i'm not. Look. There. (leg cut off) You'll pay for that... Come here! Oh, what are you going to do?? Bleed on me!?'

I love monty python. (shrubbery)

I spent the weekend as usual up at Andy's. I had fun. Friday it was Antonio, Me, Andy, Sparky, Blaine, Ricky, Matt and Jake at the pool hall for a few hours. Saturday I went to the mall with Andy, Katie and found Sparky. Then back to the pool hall and then taco bell and Blaines after that. Last night it was a bit of a repeat but Sparky Andy Katie and myself played some more pool, I drank a bit at the bar (i had a YL, A couple buds and coors) i'll nex the coors next time :S. But after that everyone showed up and played a few games got tipsy and we retired to Blaines for some Monty Python I finally fell asleep around 2:30... Yes I'm tired.. and at work.. fuck this.. toodles.

(Another Day At Home)

Tuesday, July 31st, 2007
12:39 pm
Umm Yeeeaaahhhh....
Well everyone, July has been a sucky month. I got into a bad fight with my roommates, I got trashed by someone i thought i could trust. I lost my car keys and the suckiest thing ever happened... i lost my only uncle. I miss him soo much. I really took life for granted until i finally lost someone very special to me. If I could have anything in the world right now it would be to have my uncle back.

I LOVE YOU UNCLE TOMMY

Good news, I found myself a VERY reliable roommate. I known her for over a year and she's great. We're moving to Hagerstown in about 3 weeks. Finally.. someone i can actually hang out and chill with.

i'll keep you all posted.

Love. Life. Peace.

(Another Day At Home)

Tuesday, July 17th, 2007
3:13 pm
Midnight Fun
I spent the weekend in hagerstown (hagers-tucket) with Andy and his fam and friends. It was fun. Sparky and Blaine and Andy plastic wrapped rickeys new car and put a UPS sticker on it. That was fucking hilarious. Not to mention the plastic wrapped the street off from the utility pole to the stop sign.. and someone we knew coming home drove through it.. VERY Funny! Other than that just hanging out and talking with everyone. I'm so happy which is a nice change. I got sick friday night.. i had a really bad headache and Andy was being so very sweet about the whole situation.

Current Mood: happy

(Another Day At Home)

Monday, July 9th, 2007
3:52 pm
Words spoken are not the only words that should be heard.
Well everybody.. my vacation was rather interesting. I brought Andy with me to meet my parents. It actually went well I think. Mom and Dad seemed to really like him. So Andrew, Sarah, Cody, Keisha, Mom, Jess, Holly, Tracey, Andy and myself all went to sleep and went to Cedar Point on Saturday. I had fun. I ended up ripcording with andrew and sarah at the end of the night. It was fun. The drive home wasn't good though. We finally got home around 4:30. Andy and sarah had to keep me awake the last half an hour. I was sleepy. Sunday, Andy and I slept in and ended up going night fishing with jess and michael. We didn't catch anything but it was still a new experience. got home late and slept all day monday and then we decided to go to the mall and incorporated. Then Andy and I went back to the house and went fishing.. I CAUGHT A FISH!! I was excited... it was a small fish but a fish none-the-less! We then proceeded to go to the mayesville bowling alley where all the ouz people were lol. Rach and sarah and andrew where the only ones i really knew. It was fun though. Went to taco bell with andrew and andy and ran into tasha and mark which was kinda nice. I haven't seen either in a while. Andy and I then went home and went to bed. Tuesday was kinda blurry... went to the mall to get dad a pair of chucks... that's right... my dad.. wearing chucks... weird. Anyway, did that, went to the river with tay tay, mysti, andrew, corey and andy... that was fun until i fell on my ass lol yucky river water :P blah! Then seths bonfire and I don't think i need to explain that. Seth and Nick seemed to get a long with Andy most of all. I'm glad. It was just the four of us at the end. Things got crazy fast after that and i'm not going to say because it's not right but all who know about it.. little joey is ok for now.

Actually, i'd just like to say to everyone that i'm sorry i had to leave so suddenly but you know things happen and yes andrew it sux and i know you're feelings on the situation. I'm still at work so i should probably get off this site now and finish up my documentation on the events of today. Work had really sucked lately... and i may be transferring soon. hopefully.

(Another Day At Home)

Thursday, June 7th, 2007
11:52 am
okay...
Guys suck.. they fight with each other over EVERYTHING! I really don't understand the male species. So Teusday blew chunks. I hung out with andy and jay and well those days are WAY over.

She knows what she needs, She needs what she knows mybe someday she'll find it... maybe

A little atticuse fault there for you all.

Meeting at riverside park on june 29th at 9 ish. Basically just to sort out who's driving who's going and that sot of thing.

I'm out

(1 Add More Stress | Another Day At Home)

Monday, June 4th, 2007
7:49 am
!
Well another wonderful morning here at usamriid. I hate this fucking place. i can not stress to any of you how much hatred I have for this place.

As for life. Life in general is pretty okay. I'll be home soon for a little over a week. I'm excited for that. Not that it won't be like every other time I come home. See people, not see some as much as others.. piss people off, try to avoid the third day bitch (which in this particular case it'llbe the 6 and a half day bitch. Get wasted, drama fucking all the time, mix in some fireworks for flavor and it's off to maryland again until the next episode. I'm not going to lie and say i hate coming home because I don't I just hate the drama, i hate the fact that no one is doing anything with their lives and just drifting through life and the great giant fact that people are more concerned with who their friends are dating and what this person said last week than what they want in their own future.

To tell you all the truth; I am at a loss for words most of the time when people call me. I try to help people even if they don't want helped and don't deserve help. That's the person I am and shame on you for taking advanteage of that. I'm here for all of you and most of you know that. I'd never turn away from any of you in a dark moment in your life.

( steps off the soapbox ) Now then

I'm going to cedar point on June 30th. I'm leaving at 6 o clock in the morning.. not 6:05 not 6:01.... 6! That means I will leave your ass if your not at my house. The people going for sure are me, my mom, my sis, andrew and sarah. I believe mysti is driving separatly as well. I'm hanging out with friends and fam. I can't stop you from going as well if you want to but if you go with me... don't fucking drag along someone that you are just going to blow off the rest of us for. There's nothing I hate more than people who are all excited to do something but the second they they get what they need from you ( in this case a ride) and then ditch you all day and say (oh sorry we lost you guys ) I'm calling a bullshit Mary on that one.

I'm done bitching now... i mostly did it because I was so bored. Gah!

(3 Add More Stresss | Another Day At Home)

Tuesday, May 8th, 2007
9:50 am
look at me updating my lj soo much. slightly pathetic huh? I'm working on cracking xanga and myspace and facebook. I get bored

(1 Add More Stress | Another Day At Home)

Tuesday, May 1st, 2007
11:33 am
Getting around a Gov't Firewall
Not as hard as it sounds really. I mean come on. I did it. I decided i would update.

I bout a computer last night. It shall be my friend and I no longer have to go to my sisters house to fucking check my email. Which really is sucky sometimes... dog biting my toes, other dog not caring and then bitching. Oy.. and I want a puppy... i'm just in love with punishment I guess. So sorry to anyone who has called lately; i've been busy.

Oh and btw i've been trying to watch Dark Harvest 3 for 4 weeks now!!!!!! I'm going to be very upset if it sux and i've waited this long. Though I did buy Haggard (finally) and red vs Blue season 4 so there's a few awesome back ups.

That's all for now people ttyl.

(Another Day At Home)

Tuesday, April 3rd, 2007
3:50 pm
Cat Scratch Fever
So, I decided that i'm not visiting with people when I come home next time. I'm just going to hang out with my family. That way i'm not a pain in anyones as or break 'promises'. I love it how i'm looking like a bitch because i decided to throw my friend a birthday party. Yeah, ok... and it makes no difference at all that i came home and he went to Kentucky... oh no: that's completly different. I don't understand and i'm not going to drag myself down again because he decicded to freak out on me. Go ahead... make me look like a bitch. We both know why it happened.

(3 Add More Stresss | Another Day At Home)

Sunday, November 26th, 2006
12:17 am
party at my house, call if you need directions, 240 626 7216

bonfire included alcohol sold seperately

(Another Day At Home)

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